Up and downs.

I don't know what's up with the training today. many things happen. Today when KY teared and she feel she may pull down the whole team. Honestly speaking, im really heartbroken of how stress she's feeling. firstly, we trained for so long, this is only the 2nd time she joined us for training. Although as a reserve, she know the importance of the word, COMPETITION. coping with stress from A-levels and having to commit to comp definately will not be at all easy to her.. Jia you! got my support and im sure the others. Should concentrate on A-level first since it's no matter what more important, future.

I started thinking, pulling the troupe down, is it us? From the start till now, we havent really trained a full round without mistakes, always stop at half way and expect to end things there. This is not the way, this is never the way. When you crossed an obstacle, you're happy, finally after trying and trying, you crossed it. Afterwards, things changes and pulled you down into the well once again, adding stuffs, adding this and that, you just have to start adding things onto your own to get used to those stuffs and be ready for what you're expected to have during competition. Nobody said things were gonna be easy, we strived hard till here, we trained so hard till here, im not gonna give up no matter what. Things are hard, being upset, being negative will not aid in anything isnt it the truth?

I don't want to lie to myself but this isnt my standard, not at all. I hate the feeling of failing. I hate the feeling of falling. I hate the feeling of not completing. No one likes it, we just gotta endure and endure. Endurance brings you to a greater height. Till now, it's never a lie. O level shows it, now, it's time to show the word ENDURANCE can do for competition. Working hard is also another important key point.

Im sure together, the music team, the lion team will survive and do well together for the comp. our goal is to all get into finals and bring glory to the troupe. we can do it! Jia you everyone! JIAYOU!!!

很不想听到拖累这两个字。因为，好像我们在拖累别人。。。我，自己的本分都没做好。。。

I lose my confidence, my motivation...

Competition is arriving soon, 1 month? less than a month? nervous, stress, what's more?

I am really looking forward to it at first, but now, not really after yesterday training... Think that "motivation" just killed me off ba. With the back and everything, things didn't really went well. I believe things will be good, not now perhaps but soon for sure. cos now perhaps we are just now used to it yet and we are just a newbie for back and pants. Train more, gain more, learn more. believe in ourselves and things will go smoothly in our way. That's my only motivation now...

All I want for competition, training, perfection, motivation, IMPACT, stability, power, lion-like actions, coordination, stamina, wind, speed. All these for comp~ All im looking for! Let's go! JIA YOU.

I know i've been blogging a lot and tweeting a lot about comp comp comp, seeking for understanding, just want somewhere to note things down somehow..

Here we go, 51 days.

Sup guys~ 

After so many of stressful trainings and stuffs, finally a confirmation on us going for competition! Really, FINALLY. Was really worried and stress to be honest cos I really doubt we are going for competition on tuesday when we have our last 2nd training before the confirmation. Tuesday training was totally out of our expectation cos of the darkness and stuffs. Yesterday had training, things went somehow well but can do better.

Looking at past and now, improvement had been made, more to come, more to strive for! Let's go~! :)  Yesterday when see our team I was damn happy la~ Like whole clique going to competition together! Saying clique doesn't mean really clique, I mean, all the old teenagers going to competition as a team! AWESOME. :D KY, LS, JJ, PZ, RS, TY, YB, CH, me, hope things goes well! Jia you together! 

I'm suffering cramps everywhere now! D: FORK!especially my back, thing not used to bending so long still. My leg blue-blacks a lot eh. x.x" Yesterday kick a chair another blue-black joined my blue-black family. Lol.... But I feel so man with all these bruises! SIAO KIA! HAHAHAHA! LOL. OK CAN!

All the bruises :( Make me so man! :P

Got 2 formal reports to do and I totally forgotten about them! Shit. Shall start doing today if not can kill myself when school starts already! x.x

Shagggggggg.

Finally training over today. Yeap, finally. Raymond kor was damn early. he whatsapp me but I didn't know cos im not at home with wifi :( He reached cc by 3pm and when CH and I reach cc, the chairs already set up! I SWEAR IM  SUPER DUPER SHOCK! omg. I really want to thank Raymond kor for his support in us, I really think without his support and perverance and patience, we won't even have the chance to go for competition this time.

So went to change and trained. He injured his legs, have thigh cramps and also blister on his hand. Thanks to my brikenstock, which is only the first day I'm wearing it, I suffered blisten too, but on my foot! DAFUGGGGGG! ok, no point complaining! LALALA~ My wrist damn pain la, I think over stained it or my veins kana pulled. Well, injuries and stuffs during training will be normal and small kick to us. Cannot let such stuffs pull us down. But, pain sia when im typing now. -.- too bad, just wanna blog! :D

Today training was pretty awesome I gotta say. Finally we have a tao shi and we were far better off than yesterday training. true la uh, perhaps yesterday the place quite squeezy and small. But then the timing, the training and stuffs, today really owns yesterday~ Happy to say got improvement but honestly, things aren't perfect yet. Sigh, still gotta mug! PATIENCE! Things will go well! I'm sure we will make things happen instead of waiting for things to fall on us! Let's work hard shit head teo! :)

Today during meeting, I was being elected to be storeman again. Well.... ...... ...... Many knows I don't really wants it because things were kinda hard for me and tiring for me for the previous time... Forever you will hear "AH DA can go help me.... AH DA you...... AH DA later you can......" Well, still my point stays. Storeman is incharged of store and not to go around here, there, everywhere to take stuffs for you. DO NOTE THAT. Since elected! I am going to give my very best! Confirm can one! But need a TEAM cooperation. Yeap, I seriously mean cooperation. if you know what I mean, then, thank you! I'm sure I can do this job well! JIAYOU! and RONA JIE! Jia you for the 12 drums thing! Looking forward to be one of the 12 men! Emmmm. the most muscular one, you get what I mean~~~ HAHAHA.

Food hunt session 1

Alright~ Here we go~! :D So apparently today went to FOOD HUNTING with bro~ First station for the first food hunt is Old Airport Road which is the place I've been going for laoban! So went to meet him at SP and then we took train to the next station after Dakota and walked a damn long way to the hawker centre because we simply never walk before! If we know how to walk confirm very fast jiu reach the hawker centre liao de lo~ :( It's ok, first time ma, next time if go then will know liao also.

So yeap!  Arrived at the hawker centre and went to look for food~ Awesome! we were both damn hungry la! So went to buy the char kuay tiao which was having a super duper long queue and he went to buy Toa Payoh Rojak. Picture by picture let's do the talking!

The char kuay tiao was kinda nice but also kinda normal to me also actually. It's good cos it is not too dry as you know some char kuay tiao is really dry and not "watery" at all. This kinda moisture is quite alright as it's neither too wet nor too dry! *Thumps up* But as for taste wise, it's pretty normal  like other char kuay tiao stall outside. so yea~

Rojak Rojak! The stall name is Toa Payoh Rojak which the Rojak sauce is simply awesome! The chilli is neither too HOT or too sweet. But just that the serving isn't very big which is kinda out of expectation though. Was kinda surprised that the rojak have kang kong in it too. The tao pok and you tiao is very crispy which is totally  a turn on to me~ :)

 The wanton mee. Well well, I find that it's kinda normal... so, not much comment. The noodle is kinda hard but the sauce and stuffs makes the wanton mee nice like other stalls outside too.

 What's even better than this on a HOT HOT day?! This is just purely cooling! Sugarcane drink! Feel so refreshing after drinking this and I finished half of it even before I started eating -.- ok, crapp. But still, SHIOK AH!

 Fried oysters omelete. I suggested to try this but the funny thing about this is, I thought yb eats oysters so I didnt ask him not to put oysters, in the end left the oysters and hums on the char kuay tiao, then I ask if he wants to eat and he said no. Hahaha. I love the potato starch in the egg! The only thing I'm looking forward to when eating this cos I don't eat oysters or hums or mussles or any related family members of theirs. I do eat during buffets but really is take 1 and try and no more eating. LOL

 I gotta say this is my favorite dishes for the main dishes of all today! The soup is so sweet and so nice! omg omg omg~ But I think the soup makes me feel thirsty too after that. But this is like my favorite dish for today. The meat of the pork is tender and soft and the prawn is quite sweet too~ Simply nothing but awesome!

 The dishes we had before.....

 LAO BAN! Ok, when going I still tell yb I don't want buy lao ban cos these few days kept eating really  a little tired of it. But then at there he said he wanna buy laoban cos the weather quite humid. And being tempted I bought one original too! Opps! Hahaha. Eat le really felt so cooling! Woo~ Pudding kinda soya beancurd and today the beancurd is very chilled, so it gives the shiokness. Monday before chalet I bought de not so cold, eat le also not that nice. The colder the nicer lo!

The last dish of the day, we also bought fried pig intestines which this is the dachang, so we bought pig big intestine? somehow~ okcan! The taste not as bad la~ This stall don't have those smelly smelly kinda of feel so considered quite nice already. Adding the sweet sauce and chilli sauce together, then dip the fried large intestine in it and eat it in a mouthful is just HEAVENLY! *ding dong* *ding dong* 

Do feel satisfied today! Next station hmmmmmm, dk where to go still. Guess I stay to eat at BP for too long already! Heh. Hopefully session 2 will be here soon then :)

Class chalet

Hey sup! It's 6th June now~ Was having class chalet on 4th to 5th June 2012 at aloha loyang~ Well, overall was rather fun and awesome! Think our class got more bonded! :D It's really an awesome thing to say, really! :) Morning at about 10am I left home to wait for bus. Gotta reach Dhoby ghaut mrt by 11am, met up with Eileen and Chavin and then off to Dakota to wait for GuiXiang. Ate lunch at Old airport road food centre and bought LaoBan to chalet! :D Was bored waiting for GX so just took some photos at the MRT station

Went to meet up the rest at Pasir Ris MRT station. They were buying some stuffs to chalet for BBQ. Ahhh, think our whole class sort of block other people way sia. Hahaha. But super awesome that whole class went, teamwork and what uh...emm. ok la, cannot find word to replace! LOL. HAHAHA. okcan, but don't find the need to do so cos we like blocking up ppl de place anyway. then took shutter bus to chalet and this is the very first time I check in for a chalet! ok, finally something different I feel about being 18. hmmm. was kinda excited to do the check in though. planned so many chalet and finally being able to check in myself. yea~ :)

Was kinda sian so after settled down and stuffs, started fire and we started BBQ-ing at about 5+! YES. I just love starting fire! There's nothing that is more fun than that can! xD cook food la~ BBQ la~ take photos la~ and time just flies! Went to walk around at the beach and wah, the first time I see FLIES flying and popping out from the sands, makes me damn dizzy watching them. don't even know what exactly they are. I realised I didn't eat any of the satays at all! Looking at the picture below makes me damn tempted can! :( ok nvm! Friday got secondary school BBQ, I WILL EAT THE SATAY LA~! :D

Ok, this is just a class photo before those people chasing for shutterbus went off~ :) But lacks of 3 person who didn't go chalet though! I picked the nicest c;ass photo liao anyway~ :DHad a blast at chalet and is the first time I took care of a drunk person! Wanna see people get drunk but didn't know the after problems was so so so much! but nevertheless, good that she's ok! :)

Thanks people! For the present and birthday wishes and cards~ :) That's all for now! Shall post another post soon, on today's food hunt! 2 postes today! :)

Disappointment, nothing use.

Firstly, thanks Stamford for the celebration, presents and the super nice card and of course the CAKE. haha. Had a great time and day :) Thanks :D

alright, im not in mood for those stuffs so... still thanksful and happy.

Firstly,
What a failure I can be? We had been training for months, quite some time for now. still, my standard is worst than someone who oftenly train head and rarely train tail. I emphasise, im not blaming yb or ch for training together, there's nothing else beyond this line than me being disappointed with myself.
What can I say much? Training so long, so hard, not getting lots of support but instead getting suan and negative stuffs. And everything just seems so real now, my standards are bad. I can hardly do something that makes me wow like last time, I cannot succeed doing something that we used to be able to complete, im not able to make myself think positive at this very point of time.... I hope someone will understand my feeling but all people think is just jealous, or something else.
I'm no one to stop anyone from going to group together or train together because i know they make a better pair than I do. I will still work hard, I promise. But at the same time, I won't stop people from training with him. I know, I care. But I know, someone who's better can bring much more, much better results than me to the troupe as well as much glory to the troupe. What comes first? Glory or self? If me, I will say glory. Yes, I may be upset or stuffs but what has to come has to come. I really just want a peaceful mind from now...
Honestly, im really stress just now at training during lion dance. I think this is the first time I felt this way, this stressful. No matter what, train hard. If things don't go your way, give them your support. I WON'T GIVE UP.