Sem 1 MST down!

 Finally finally finally!! MST is down and a short break is here! Finally the end of the tedious week where I don't have much sleep and much rest. It's really tedious. But it's over... for now at least! SCREAMS! We are like a happy class when we completed the last paper today. All our faces and reactions are damn epic. Hahaha. Oh well, no matter what the results are, put them aside, when we have to come and face it, eventually we will. So let's just face this holidays happily first before facing the results of MST. Holidays, Let's Go!

 

After paper today the few of us went to Bugis to have lunch~ Ok fine, brunch instead. As it was like 10+am in the morning, yes yes yes, very early still while waiting for swensens to open, we expected it to open their shutters at 11am though. So went to lepak around and Emilyn bought us Twelve Cupcakes to share! Thanks! :) Though we were to full after our lunch and we just try to insert it into our stomach. Hahaha. Walked to Swensens at around 10.45am I guess? And the door is like already open! LOL! Had lunch deal in there. Enjoyed my chili fish pasta, as awesome as the previous time! :)

Twelve Cupcakes

Chilli Fish Pasta, Swensens Bugis

After eating went to karaoke with Rona jie and Ting Yan! Not bad eh I broke my record today! Getting sore-voice just 30 minutes since we started singing. LOL. Bad effect of not feeling well days before. Overall still had much fun walking around Bugis and shopping around after singing! This relaxing mood today I hope it will last, hope it won't become sian very quickly, I really hope so ah...

Lychee season is here!

 Received my annual birthday card from Stamford today. Yea through mailing! This year get the cow series again! Hahaha. But super cute ah this year one! 5 more days to my birthday but actually I don't know why just not in birthday mood at all and am quite reluctant to turn 19. Well, the year of 18 was good and not very good, I don't even know how to describe my year of 18. True enough that age is just a number and nothing much more important than that as long as your heart is good and clear. Well well, let's accept what's over and what's going to get over pretty soon and move on with life. 2 more papers to go on tomorrow and Friday! #Leggo!

 

The lychee season is here! Awesome! I typed durian season for I don't know what reason! LOL! But yeah my favorite seasonal food is here again! I don't really have a specific like or dislike of fruits, every fruits works well for me but I don't know why Lychee just somehow brings back memories and also is really a fruit we only get to see the raw ones at this seasons. Raw ones as in naturally sweet and yeah, raw. Shall enjoy the lychee season before it will be gone for another one year again! xD

1 down, 3 more to go!

YESSSSS! One paper finally down today! Awaiting for this week for so long, cos after MST week it will be a short break, a mini-holiday for from all of these things. Studying can get tiring too though, well this is the fact yea? All the modules this semester need to memorise, tomorrow is nutrition paper omg... I'm lucky to say today's paper turn out to be rather manageable! Was very worry for it cos went into exam hall feeling so so so not confidence in the paper. Tomorrow nutrition, hope the paper will be manageable too! It's just like F&N paper to be honest. Hahaha! It's a paper of whether you know it or you don't know it. That's where stress comes from I guess? It's totally bringing up F&N to another level with so much more information to take in and much more to memorise. Hoping for the best. No one wants to fail any of the modules. This semester is a good chance to pull my GPA up with a few in-course module and thus I have to really work hard to strive for it. Can't be a moron to pull my own GPA down. It'll be very dumb eh? Come on, let's work hard towards the goal! :)

笑。

我努力想笑，想好好抛开这一切当成什么事都没发生。但我做不到。当你看到自己被敷衍，慢慢距离默默被拉远，从以前的玩到至今的冷漠，看了心不寒才怪。为什么真心付出得不到别人的真心付出呢？曾经说过的话，曾经答应的事都走进历史成为往事。我不知道为什么，我那些好友都慢慢变成朋友，最后总觉得变成勉强说那几句话的朋友。别人怎么看我或许我不在乎，但你们，我在乎的人，怎么一次一次这样踩着我的落点走？也许对你们说这样很好玩，但我的感受，你们没想过吗？忍着泪水说这些话，要我说我不在乎我说不出口。看着别人越来越好，我就越来越疏远，当初呢？我努力在好友身旁却一一离开我。讨厌我就直说好不好？不要把我当stand by 或代替品。

From Instagram

I know exactly what it meant by sorry doesn't mean anything anymore. The top image came in time to my instagram timeline. What else could I say? It's my bad, my attitude. It's how I treat people that made people unhappy and kb. Wanting to change but somehow things just flow out from my mouth. If you treat it as I done things on purpose, perhaps I'm speechless towards these words. How unimportant I am now and how neglected I felt, these are things I may not say but yet I'm feeling them. Always giving out so much but getting back so less in return, why being taken for granted? Why being taken like you've never really exist or is never ever important? No one likes to be taken for granted from the people they've never been taken for granted of. That's nothing but the truth, perhaps the unwanted truth.

Happy 40th Birthday Stamford! :)

 It have been 13 years since I'm in Stamford. Spent 13 years of my life with it and it spent 13 years in my life accompanying me through up and downs, creating up and downs, giving me opportunity, allowing me to learn, allowing me to own leadership, allowing us to be independent for those who bothered to be independent. In here, a new family other than blood-related family is created. Been a century and still counting on till I'm not sure when as well. Overall, thanks for being part of my life and allowing things that never come true, some things others could never have the chance to experience, to all come into me. Dragon dance competition, lion dance competition and drums, these 3 strong main components, hope to strive for more improvements, more bomb-bastic performance and of course, to aim for our goal, work hard towards our goal and achieve our goal! Let's go and continue to make the history of ours! Stamford 40's in 26th May 2013.

Stamford's birthday cake :)

Some people who are important to me, I may be just a normal friend to some of them but I've been treating them like they are my bro and sis. Though I may be taken for granted, I may be an annoying one, I may be someone who annoying the hell out of people, some chooses not to leave. Thanks for staying, those who are leaving, I know, I can feel I can see. If you've tried to stay, thank you and perhaps, I'm sorry.

Had training in the morning today and yeah we celebrated Stamford's birthday after our 2 short rounds of training. Well don't know what's wrong with us, we only train 2 rounds today... Hmmm, can consider quite slack I would say, and we are just all very tired and shag. Normally it won't take us 2 rounds to reach this standard of tiredness, it'll be more rounds though. But oh well, am already feeling so dizzy after first round which I don't know why. -.- Maybe it's due to the weather I hope and not something else... Had a mini celebration as mentioned earlier! Sung birthday song and ate cake. Today cake like a nice eh! Rarely they produce such nice cake when I buy from them in the past. Not bad not bad! Hahaha! Sang birthday song like 4 times, 2 times fast and 2 times slow. The slow one we really sound like choir! LOL~

 

After which came back home and went to buy my sis wedding stuff for her Guo Da Li. The uncle in th shop was really kind of naggy cos he just kept repeating the same things over and over again. But had a blast of laughter in the shop too. Never know so much of Chinese customs till now! Interesting much I would say. :) After that went to my uncle house and finally tried SWEE CHOON custard buns! :D But taste like Kungfu Paradise one leh... Like the same. o.o Just that when cold already not so nice but the fillings and fun is totally like KFP one to me. x.x Still, it's nice ah! Hahaha.

Have my feelings been thought?

Been unhappy for the past few trainings seeing some people attitude towards training. Today unfortunately broke down. Who likes to show black face? Who like to be annoyed? Who like to break down and be unhappy? No one hates to be happy, everyone wants to feel joyful and feel the happiness that came from the deep side of your heart. When that feeling is strong, the happiness that you felt is pretty much the best feeling in life one can ever felt. The attitude, the words, how you've been treating others and taking training like a joke is really disappointing me. We are all trying to be serious, trying to find pick out the needle from where the mistakes are coming from. Yet you see someone just taking it like a joke and everything won't be his/her fault even if it is. Yes, people who have eyes can see and they  know what's going on. Pointing fingers around doesn't help. Why not try and think if the problem maybe on you instead of insisting on pointing your fingers on others?

 

In competition training these such of things happens and always happen. I know, yes I do. Guess on the day after competition, if we won or get our goal result, the people who will feel most accomplished or disappointed are the ones who put in the most amount of efforts and the ones who never give up on their team mates, never mock at them, those who encourages them and do well together, are the ones who will feel proud of the team who put in the same amount of effort, and be proud and honored of themselves and their team. TEAM, a important word indeed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Things changed, times changed, people changed. Where's the person I've trusted and yet again and again drifting away the distance from me? Why? I would like to know. If it's me who done anything wrong, let me know. Don't just drift distance away and left me there don't know what's going on. People words used to be trustable, people used to be trustworthy on their words. Things seems to have changed and not be in the way it used to be... No one likes to be taken advantage of or to be taken for granted. In life, unfortunately, there are people who likes to use people in these ways.

Yogurt, craving satisfied.

Today was supposed to be #TGIF, well it means Thanks God It's Friday~ But I said, supposed. Honestly, I didn't really enjoy my Friday today. Well well well, kinda glad that the weekends are here. So there shouldn't be much to complain about since I've got the weekend here with me. Today was a short day in school. Went to school for 2 lessons and then off to Bugis to collect my blazer, which will be worn on my sis wedding. Teehee~ I didn't expect it to be the way it is now but anyways, just accept it la uh. Hahaha. Lazy to wait and go to Bugis again and again. They helped me for so long I also feel bad la... Photo shall be up after my sister wedding. :) Ate our crepe, FINALLY for Winnie but 2nd time for me! Tried new flavor today but didn't really like it. Ordered seaweed chicken crepe but I got myself a crepe with all ingredients except seaweed.... Okay can~ Walked around Bugis Street and Junction, I swear my ankle were feeling damn pain, I don't know why though. Walk too much perhaps. -.-

 

Met Ting Yan on MRT platform after that and proceed to Orchard to buy my sis belated birthday present. Hohoho. Something wild and sexy on the 21st~ Hmmm, keep your thinking coming in. It's something HOT, with LEOPARD PRINTS. Ok enough of hints. FINALLY I get to eat my quite some time craving!! Yogurt~~ Are Blueberry Yogurt with fresh strawberries and marshmallows. Regretted ordering the small mini marshmallows though cos they are kind of stiff and not that kind of marshmallows I'm looking for. Overall the yogurt and toppings did satisfy my cravings. :) Yeah, it's Yami Yogurt in Orchard.

Yami Yogurt

Came back home to prepare training stuffs and performance rehearsal stuffs. Then poof to performance rehearsal. So much rashes on my legs right now. Yes from my ankle all the way to my thighs. -.- DAMN IT. Know what's the best? It's not even itchy, it got pain immediately. Trying to tolerate the pain which comes on and off during bath at different location. Annoying much. -.- Performing drums but we brought dragon music along to play during the journey. Awesome! Feel so shuang after playing the instruments. Hahaha. True enough, just whack! After the rehearsal we were all back to cc for dragon competition training. Well, don't want mention about today's training. Hope things go well tomorrow and for further trainings. That's all I'm looking forward for and hoping for.

While on the way to rehearsal venue

We are back, STRONGER.

2013, let's make it happen.
WE CAN, WE WILL, WE MUST.

Back to our first official training for this year competition. Last year was our virgin competition and we didn't do well for it I would say. With mistakes and a not so lion, lion, this year we are back and hope we can say bye to those stuffs, be back better, be back stronger! Firstly thought we lost the chance of going for competition, disappointment level was pretty high, alright I admit it was very high for me. But after all, we are getting the chance to be back for competition, of course we will strive hard and work hard towards our goal. People who know us would know, would see, we still train even when we are disappointed, we still train even when people pull us down. After all our efforts are not gone and not wasted. Really am aiming high this time, even higher than last year. Let's make it happen bro~ :)

 

Dragon dance competition in Malaysia, we are left with 24 days. Last few trainings, we must put up a good show! #Leggo~!

 

Today was quite a long day though on my time table was a short day though... Woke up at about 10+am and I woke up to a cooling weather with rain! Don't know how well more to be grateful for. These few days the big hot sorcing sun and the little or literately no win had been killing me. Been sweating like my sweat glands were tap which release water whenever and wherever. Flu was sooner or later. Having classrooms with aircon room, once we step out the room and walk a bit, the whole body start to feel the heat already -.- Yeah almost immediately. Annoying much. DAMN. Cooked my own Taiwan Maggie mee for lunch, finally tried a new flavor but it's not to my cup of tea though... :( Expected it to be nicer than what it taste like.

 

Went to driving and today driving was SUPER SMOOTH! *Screams* Finally I feel improvement and feel the satisfaction! REALLY FINALLY! Hahaha. Today is also the first time I drove back to BP, well cos he have things on after that.. -.- Took bus to school and reached school like 40 minutes earlier even before lesson starts? Meet up with the people and had my tea break. Was so hungry after driving... True enough, 4 hours was very long to take up and break down all my energy. Zzz. Burn my fats and use la! So much and so free of charge then don't want use. Dumb or what sia. After practical went down to Central with Winnie for job interview. Hope things go well and we get the phone call to start work... I hope la ah I hope!! Chance for me is quite low though... Pretty much cos I'm a guy. Well, hope and anticipate ba.

CAPtion please!

Finally we had a caps day in our class though it was quite fail~ Hahaha! But recently we meet earlier in school for breakfast and that was somehow quite successful...if the transport to school don't delay our meeting time. LOL! What a way to encourage us not to be late for class uh... Not bad not bad~ Wore my new cap to school on tuesday, yesterday lo! BOY on the top of the hat and GIRL under the duck mouth cap. Why scared why GIRL? It's kinda cool instead of just having one BOY word. I like unique and special stuffs~ Hehehe. These few days in school there are just a lot of datasheets, formal reports, OITP form, so many many things needed to be filled and also be done. MST round the corner, stress level increasing and studies are still in my pirority but procastination always takes place when I'm not supposed to... Why become like that, I would like to know too though... Sigh.

With Eileen and ZiWei

2 "boys" in class.

Guess what? After wearing cap, my hair become very very flat and smooth. I look damn kiddy and nerdy in that bloody hair style. Hahaha. And well.... That's how nerdy I look... x.x"

Week 3 of May~ Day 1 :(

Welcome to the month of May, day 1 of week 3. This morning get out of the bed feeling kinda awake like I've got enough sleep somehow. Once I got on the bus and got a seat my tiredness invade me right away. Wah amazing ah~ Hah! Upon reaching school, went to buy Mac Breakfast. Just reached school too early la sia~ Reach school 20 minutes before lesson. But after queuing and getting my food it's already like 7.55am. Walked to class like a tired zombieeee and enjoy my Mac Breakfast! :D

Mac SME meal~ :)

 Lessons went on as per normal today. I swear we are really having Monday blues! :( First lesson already gonna bored die us and somemore there's a test tomorrow! 10% of our overall results AGAIN! That is what's bad about in course module I guess... Every test counts more than those normal test we have from those normal modules. This semester we have quite a few in course module. Well, I like it though cos I guess it's easier to score for GPA with in-course modules. HOPE I WON'T FLUNK THIS SEMESTER! More than 3.0 PLEASE. I need it serious... Sighhhh. When lesson gets too bored, this is obviously what happens next! Hahaha, cam session! Hohoho~

With ZiWei~ :)

Today we had our BIA practical again and once again we see cute instruments that are used during the practical. Don't this look like those equipment used to make spices or chilli or whatever else you can think of? This is like the super mini version to grind and mix the chemicals. Hahaha! SHRINKKKKK. Indeed it's cute la uh~ Never see before so small size one. Hahaha. Obvious this won't be used to grind chilli or any food. It's too small to even do anything I guess. Even for our chemical, only 0.3g is used, not even a gram!

Letting go allow you to feel more relieved. So what if you've let go, you'll still dwell on the past and still be unable to fully let go of the past. You're left with memories that you once had and memories that makes you learnt to let go instead of to hold on. Things change while time change. People change while time change. Eventually, things won't be as what you've been through and seen in the past. What aren't meant sometimes will not be meant in the future as well after all...

Credits: Facebook

Major Performance Down~ :)

YESSSSS! The major big performance is down! :) Relief off the shoulder, for the time being! Hahaha. Yesterday went to Chung Cheng high school for a charity dinner and also our performance for the night. Went Bugis in the noon time wanting to get my Blazer chain thing but the very good shop keeper didn't ask me to bring blazer and that's why I have to go down another day to get it fix! AH DAMN! But she's damn good! :D Customized a blazer chain for ma and still charge me at a cheap price. After which came back home, rest, and off to performance lo~

 

The food serve at the dinner was great! Well, atas food. Heh! The first food item was served at 8.30 and the Wushu performance started, make us panic for a moment thinking we have to go for performance with an empty stomach. But luckily we only need to stand by at 9.05 and we have the time to eat the first few dishes first before having to perform. But I guessed I got quite full after the first 2 dishes cos I've been drinking too much orange while waiting... -.- LOL!

~Performance + Dinner~

So yeah, after the first 2 dishes we have to go to backstage and standby for our performance. Performance went pretty well I would say :) Though a little mistake but managed to cover it well with music team and lion head :) G- double O- D -J- O- B Good job good job! Didn't want mistake but during performance when it happens, just accept it then! Our handsome lion helped us do well today again~ Muacks! Hahaha!

 

 帅气的狮子，里面有用功帅气的影子。 下个大挑战要来临了！我们一起努力，一起迈向当初没得到的理想。这次，一定要做到！曾经以为没机会了感到失落，但还依然努力着。现在机会再次来临，我们还是会继续努力着为梦想前进！

The 3 handsomes.

HASHTAG # What Puberty Did To Me

So recently there's a trend on Instagram on the hashtag #whatdidpubertydidtome . I've been wanting to post one of my own but never had the time to even do that. Today managed to post it up finally and to think I've not changed in the past, now I really think.... I did changed! Pictures ranging from when I'm a baby till children till primary school till secondary school and finally till now when I'm in my poly days. Particularly liking the 2nd photo, pincing his nose for I don't know what reason! Burst out laughing to myself when I see some pictures of myself when I'm young. Should thanks my parents for taking such cute and funny moments of my life. :) Let's see the pictures:

Ah Boy to Teenager
#whatpubertydidtome

 Lesson ended early today and so we went to Seoul Garden for our buffet lunch which we had been saying since last week. Hahaha, had been wanting to go Bugis for shopping for my sis wedding outfit and there I am, :) We all just gotta admit old as our appetite had really drop a lot, last year we ate so so so much when we went steamboat or buffet but today we didn't really eat a lot like the past. Bugis do not have our favorite brownies though! SO DISAPPOINTING! Something that I'm always looking forward to when I'm at Seoul Garden. SIGHHHH :( Had so much laughters in Seoul Garden and they laughed too loud till people at the other side of the restaurant turned and look at us, an uncle stood up to look over at our table too... Oops~ Even li-siao-siao the table beside us as they are making a whole lot of noise after we quiet down. Hahaha. Manage to buy my outfit for the night as well and now I'm left with the outfit for morning! My mum ask me to get a new shirt, pants and shoes pretty much I already know what I'm going to wear already. Hope find it soon~

Seoul Garden

 Went to rehearsal just now for tomorrow big performance, as there are prelims or O level Chinese examinations going on in the morning or the next morning, the tables were set up.... like this :

Instantly the examinations feeling came back to me and remember some scenes of what happen during 'N' and 'O' level. Hahaha. Something we had to walk through and managed to survive through. But the scary feeling of having to study outside the hall and getting into the hall to settle down and do the paper.... Think of it just  makes me feel the tension in me and also the last minute faster chiong studies effect in me. I may sound like a damn fool saying this but how true? Haha. Super duper miss secondary school days, hope to go back to where we are in the past, how we are like in the past and also what things are like in the past. If only we are able to jump back into the scenes in the past and get to experience a thing we never felt and wanted to feel before, or to get into the past where we missed and wants to see it again, that's what good life is supposed to be! Fat hope, just think but if it ever happens, appreciate it. Hahaha!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

How many 2 sided faces people must I see these days? I had enough. So what of staying truthful. You're just 拍马屁-ing to others.

I hope I could write my own songs.

Played pool for the first time on the first week of school when school reopens. Well for the first time I really do mean, playing and being able to score a ball and not like the past just anyhow shoot it like a damn fool. That's really how I played it in the past though the past only have an experience... These 3 weeks we have been wanting to book a pool table to play pool together but whenever we go it's always fully booked! -.- Bloody hell! This time round we finally get the chance to play it without it being fully booked! Hahaha, was like high-ing pretty much while playing and also am crazy over how me and Winnie managed to fool the 2 again and again and again and again! LOL! Happy Monday with the chance of being able to play pool~ :) Satisfied with the temptation. Played only for 2 hours and headed to class for lessons after which till 6pm....... yes... 6pm.... :( Monday blues for us always. At least today practical ended quite early and we managed to go home early as well. Pretty much very AWESOMEEEEEE.

Pool @ School finally

I've always been thinking how good will it be if I could write songs of my own, lyrics that will relate not only to myself but to most people who pretty much can get related to them as well. Lyrics bring people into the atmosphere and bring people into a feeling that sometimes they could never describe.

 

These few days there are quite a number of things that happen, and I really wonder why I put in so much effort in maintaining and making others happy. Why do I in return get back nothing but just disappointment again and again? Just some thoughts, hoping they could become part of a song, part of a lyrics, part of someone feelings. Guess many people feel this way too just that whether they choose to say it out or they choose to just keep these to themselves like nothing have ever happened before unti one day people leave and never return for good.

心里的呐喊，谁听见？谁又感同身受？

Nando's... again.

Nando's Chicken Breast~

Had a little outing before our class on Thursday. Lesson start at 3pm that's why have time to go eat lunch! Went to eat Nando's at Star Vista with Winnie and Eileen! :) Tried Chicken Breast this time round with sides Sweet Potatoes and Coleslaw. This time the peri-peri sauce is nicer than Bugis the other time! At least this time we can really taste the HOT peri-peri sauce instead of sour sour sauce! Haha. Walked around Cold Storage and bought Dried Apple! OMG my favorite! Woo~ Though it's really kind of over expensive... Bought in Taiwan only less than $2 per pack and is big big pack! Hmph! For the cravings.... satisfied! Had practical after which which was rather draggy at first but when we really do the experiment we finished it quite fast. Not bad not bad~~~

Just have to accept that we've grown up.

看着眼前的大家几乎都变了，心不知如何嗜好。说实话，心寒了。

或许我们真的应该放眼看看现在的情况，现在的世界。

现在的世界不一样了，

大家都长大了，大家都有自己的想法了。

我们为什么会感到失落？以前的我们有一致的想法，我们心里有话也不会发出口。

或许就是因为这样，大家有了自己的想法所以才会有这样的今天。

希望距离不再疏远。现在多说多错。不说又别人越说越过分。。。

算了。。。

想着想着还真的会难过也会对一些人失望。要怪我，要说我不分青红皂白的“帮助”人，那也好。自己问心无愧，该问问自己有没有分青红皂白的我看不是我。

 

说到来，要毁灭一个人，真的很简单。别人没说的话，没那么的意思，被别人说的类似真的一样，我还能多说什么？知道事情真相，眼睁睁却让自己兄弟被这样说。。。看不过去罢了。话里有真相，但加盐加醋后，有些话根本不必说出口，也不必因为自己认为而说到好像那些都是真相。或许我说话重了点。也许你们眼里觉得我在保护兄弟，我心里知道自己是看事情还是保护就好了。。。要说我多管闲事也罢了。

5th Chapter of 2013, may you be good.

 May,

Please be good to me.

 

Mood aren't really great today... There's just so much feelings and so much of thinking going on in my head. I do wonder what's my purpose of being a friend when I can't even protect a friend and when I can't even get things on the right track. I think I don't deserve to be anyone's best friend perhaps and that's maybe the reason why my best friends, their best friends aren't me. If you ever have this kind of feelings before, just consider ourselves unlucky. Unlucky that sometimes we feel like we are just the ones smiling and laughing to ourselves. Those who do not have this kind of feelings before should really consider themselves lucky. They, will never know what we are going through and they will only think that we are giving ourselves nothing but nonsense.

 

Well, you know, sometimes it really doesn't matter how much effort you've put in. It takes 2 hands to clap... That's the saying, if you're being the only one contributing, doing things, helping to somehow cover up and help to fight against your buddies behind their back without them knowing, yet you doesn't even seem like something to them. Sometimes it's tiring, so tiring that you don't know what you are doing and why have you done so. When you need someone to talk to, who step forward to ask what help you need? Isn't it true that it's better to keep things to yourself and just hide them all in you? Some people don't know, how hard it is to act to be happy when you're just blue inside. Acting, something that one can never master easily.