Hello Kitty Craze?!

Here there every where, now seems like the black hello kitty from Mac is getting a little out of hand. Selling at the price of 126000 currently like seriously?! It's like a bit over ah, but I really kind of find it ridiculous if someone go and queue just to sell it to others, then what about people who want to queue and really collect the Hello Kitty? Buying at the price of $4.90 but yet selling at such a high price it's really a OMFG seriously. But oh well, last night after training was feeling really very very low and was asked to follow them to get the kitty. Along the way things I don't want to happen did happen again and, oh fuck, don't like to fucking feel so weak though. Queued and waited for the kitty and we seen the ugly sides of some Singaporeans and of course some good sides of the Singaporeans. But we managed to get the last few Hello Kitties. I was there to just eat instead of really buying hello kitty, I didn't have any though too bad! Hahaha. Seeing them calling each other and travelling from place to place to see where have shorter queue for the kitties are quite a funny scene actually. But after all, mood didn't get better once I reached home though...

 

 

 

 

Somethings are still in my mind and still couldn't get over them. Just came to a point to realise and to see how reluctant and how ridiculous some people, some things, some issues, some situations can be though. People will still leave you standing alone, people will still leave you one fine day and it just depends on when the time will come. Guess it's time for me to just walk away from people who want me to be away, to people who find me an nuisance to them. Perhaps walking away will be a better choice to everyone perhaps.

 

Saying we're left to 6 trainings. Total we only have like less than 14 trainings in total? Tonight, I really do hope that tonight would be fine. Yesterday night was really too much to handle, the amount of failures and the amount of things that are deproving instead of improving is too high up, way too high up. Things will get better they say, how I hope it's true, and I hope to see it real soon...

本来很开心的。。。结果好失落，好难过。

Today in school was really fun, really funny, had lots and a bit too much laughter in school today. Linked everything to some things that shouldn't really match together.... Hmmm, don't release the things better. Hahaha. But overall, had a long and tiring but yet fun with laughter day in school. Thanks guys, you all really know how to make my days.

 

Today at training, at first I was looking forward to training, at first I was really hoping to see more improvements and more more more. Today standard was the worst ever standard we ever get, so much of errors and so much of what I don't want to see. When we are out of the lion, my heart really literately sunk. Have you ever encounter a feeling like this when you really feel disheartened and just really very very disappointed with the overall performance? Stress, coming to the word stress, together putting it with the word standard. Am I having too much high hopes that are impossible to achieve? Am I putting too much stress over my own shoulders? I really don't know what others think about it. But I think the target I set can be achieved within our range. There's just reason to why I set my standard so high, if we fall we won't fall that hard. And we work hard to achieve that result and what if we really manage to hit the results we want? I'm really really really very upset over all these. Looking through today's video at CC just now, do you know how it actually feels? Watching yourself not doing well and not improving however just deproving away when we are left with so little time and so little training? Do you know how it actually feels to be even disappoint yourself and make others worry? I don't know what I am looking forward to seeing anymore, I'm wanting to and looking forward to improvements and just waiting and trying hard to train for more and for the better. I really  don't know what else to say, sometimes words can never really express how I really felt. Just one word, disheartening. Guess I would still have to put up a strong front and still face the war, never give up they say. I hope my mind continue to tell me so too...

 

鼻子真的一直很酸，说说一下眼泪又打滚了。。。压力真的太大了吗？

Stress increasing yet not releasing.

It just came to the point where I really don't know where all my efforts gone to. My efforts aren't reflecting on lion dance. Similarly, it aren't reflecting on my results. A, a target I've set before coming into Poly, why does it seems so so so far away from me? Am I not working hard enough or am I having too much, way too much other commitments that I've eventually leave out on my studies? Time management, something that I manage to commit well when I'm in 'N' level or even 'O' level, yet now, I'm having nothing else but projects, school, reports, data sheets, and endless commitments, increasing commitments in lion dance. I really don't want to get bad results from anywhere, really anywhere. Not school and not lion dance. Results, I do hope to get good results, I wouldn't say that I've worked hard enough but similarly, I won't say I didnt put in enough efforts.

 

Lion dance, something that I've been working hard, something that I've been striving hard to achieve my best in it. Yet recently, there's nothing but problems and problems. We just have to overcome them again and again. Endlessly need to make things better. Some problems doesn't come from errors or what else but they comes from people. How much to get understanding, how much to not get tied down? It really comes to the point where I had enough, enough of increasing stress, endless stress increasing every single time, nothing is releasing but just increasing and increasing. No matter if it's from school or from lion dance, I really don't know how to manage or continue anymore at times. Well, being appreciative for people around me, those who are there to support, to give strength, to give what they can instead of just blaming and blaming. Those who are there, I know who, and you know who you are. Sometimes, motivation, supports and encouragement are really far more important than anything else.

 

Stress, I hope I can overcome you soon, I really need to. Stop increasing please, having stress is good but not to the extend of me having hard time coping and a hard time coping with so much stress at one go. I really don't hope to break down but yet it seems like breaking down seems so hard to even avoid. I'm trying hard to stay strong and trying hard, very hard to maintain my strong instead of breaking down. Tomorrow, final rehearsal somehow for it. Hope things goes well, really hope so... Our target, it still seems far away. Great improvements needed, more more more needed indeed.

 

Sometimes, letting go is a better choice perhaps.

Class Chalet #LEGGO ~

This year had class chalet with Poly mates again! Nobody get drunk this year, luckily ah! HAHAHA. Still had quite lots of fun this year though many of us get so tired and we slept through the night after 3am. Hahaha.  Last year at chalet there's something to worry about, competition. Well, this year similarly, the message was sent in the morning of the chalet when I'm already with the classmates. DAFUG, must this trend continue?! To make me worry about the same issue for both chalet?! Thanks them for being understanding at least they didn't blame me for walking away to talk on phone and some even bothered to ask. :) And of course, thanks my sis, Rona jie and my lion head for being there for me that day.

 

This 2 prepared a cake to surprise me for the night as a belated birthday celebration but hor.... I spoilt their plans la ah! I said:"I saw the cake already!" HAHAHA. Oops. Kana smashed cake by Emilyn, thanks ah thanks -.- But karma is always present just that it's either sooner or later. Ps you get it too soon. Hahaha~ We plan to go for midnight movie initially but in the end we went for scrolling around the beach at ECP instead. The haze made us see the "beach" indeed eh? LOL. Went to Ehub instead and back to chalet.  Overall, had a great chalet with them! School reopen soon, sigh, let's go~ Time to face the results though. SIAN LA SIA

Thanks you 2, for the cake and the celebration! Thanks for the card too Wei~

With the overnight peeps~

OTY 21st PARTYYYY

Today attended Ting Yan's 21st birthday celebration at The Warren function  room! Had much fun well, having props for photo taking is a good and fun thing to do though. Hahaha. I'm sexy and it's soooo hot! Though not all teen birds are there but still we did had lots of fun. This noon wanted to train but the haze level went up to 401 in the noon for the PSI 3 hours average. Tmd gan high can! My lion head decided not to train cos when we knew it hit 400 it's like -.- already. So in the end we did not train and yeah. Once we decided not to train, from like 3pm the PSI average start to drop drop drop and drop so much! But oh well, we can't chase back time and of course our health is much more important to us though. Haze, stop being a burden, you had enough attention, time for you to take your leave and let Singapore be back to the Singapore that we used to have. :) BYEEEE. SHOO SHOOO.

 

For now let's just let the pictures do the talking for a moment.. :)

With Ting Yan, Happy 21st Birthday! :)

 

Back to training tomorrow, I'm really really hoping that things goes well and also, to complete one full round with no mistakes and with good things coming along with it. Tomorrow let's work out our best for ourselves and those who are there for us.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

星期三快到了，我真的很担心。。。我不喜欢这种感觉，真的。

Haze gets BADder not better...

Yet another burden...

Yesterday night the PSI recorded a brand new record in Singapore. With a PSI level of 321 as of 11pm last night. It already reached the hazardous level and this is seriously bad for us, our health is an important issue. This morning the PSI is recorded 198 at 11am. Things are getting serious over here, it's time to take some actions if not nothing will go better yea...

 

 Morning when I looked out the window and see this serious haze, what strike my mind first? Tonight's training. Competition is really near the corner and yet I'm feeling unprepared. I know we can do it, I know all I need now is confidence, but the amount of confidence I'm having is just constantly dropping and dropping. Been through so many competitions as a music team, this is the 2nd time as the lion team with my lion head, this is the first, really the first time I've seen so many problems we can face in just one competition. Are we not fated to be going to competition this year? Why is it when you put in so much effort but yet things are getting bad, worst, more and more jialat? I won't deny this time we put in much much more effort than last year, how many days had we spend our time at cc during our holidays on our own and with our instructors and drummer? How many days had we spend training, spend on doing props and yet the props are failing from time to time and just increasing my stress? Maybe some people are just thinking I'm the one who's giving myself so much stress but do they know our target and our goal? Do they know what target had we set for ourselves? I need a chill pill and I really need one, I don't need a charcoal burning environment like as if I'm killing myself though. I need fresh air and chill pill, come on, grant my wish. For now, we're supposed to feel prepared, not like now.. So unprepared.

压力好大。。。

本来说好这个星期四要把需要的东西做出来，但今天去尝试，又失败了。
压力真的好大，这会影响我们，而且给我们蛮大的影响。。。
现在正在想新的方法，但就是想不出。。。
希望早有解决方法吧。。。

五月天诺亚方舟演唱会 （新加坡站）

Yesterday night was a blast! Went to Mayday concert, my birthday present from my sis which really thank her for this gift if not I wouldn't be there. We were very very near the standing platform and we were like nearer than some of the people who bought more expensive tickets than ours. Some songs which I don't know was really.... well you know, just sian already. Hahaha. But most of the songs luckily we do know them and we just get so carried away singing and highing. Hahaha. My lightstick spoilt and went to change it. LOL. Another highlight of their show is their controlled light sticks. Heard that for SHE concert there will be the colour changeable light sticks too! They controlled it and the whole stadium lightsticks colours will sync according to their songs. Just really did enjoy a lot yesterday! Next concert in October! SHE here we comeeeeeeee~ WE ARE ANTICIPATING YOU! xD

A day out.

Starting the post with a pose with Iron Man xD

 

Today today... Well might as well call it another lion dance training! 3rd day of training straight since Tuesday kick off. Had self training in the noon time but before that we went to Bangkit to eat KUAY CHAP! Ok thanks to instagram, made me have craving for Kuay Chap since yesterday. Awesome right! That's why today went to have Kuay Chap for lunch. Hahaha. CRAVING SATISFIED! This sentence is like super important here and right now.

Trained for an hour plus and quite a few rounds then we went off to play pool at Timah. Wanted to go SP to play but it's already 4+ when we hit to pool so decided to just go Timah instead of SP. Sian only the 3rd time playing pool so what do you think? Kana trashed la sia! But it's a close competition la ah! NOT TILL THAT VERY BAD LA SIA. Hahaha. Just played for an hour cos both of us need head home for dinner. Not shiok eh. Should play longer next time. 2 hours maybe?

Pool time~

Spent like almost half a day with this bro.

Back to cc at night for the other group training and also to try the prop. Idea secured but need to redo cos that one that we tried in the afternoon is too fragile already... x.x NEXT ONE PLEASE LET US SUCCEED OK? Raymond kor doing count down and competition is like drawing near already if we get the first day of competition, don't know when yet and also don't know anything until after we go for LUCKY DRAW. Well well, no matter what just praying hard that it won't be so fast and also we have enough time to reach the standard that we are aiming for. Pray hard doesn't work though, work hard is more important, right? #LEGGO #LEGGO

Credits: Facebook

其实我想问，怎么有时昨天说的话，昨天所答应的，今天都变了样？
是没错，日子一天一天的过，每天都有新的奇事，新的感触。
但有些重要的事怎么能说了就算了呢？

有些事情需要的是不只一个人的付出，不只一个人的努力。
当有时你觉得对你重要的事对别人看起来不是那么重要了，那种心情真的很沉重。
当时说的话都给忘了吗？答应的都给忘了吗？
担心的总是我，想要做的更好的总是我。
或许是我太重视，太在乎我所想要的。
如果有一天我不说也不在乎了，
那我真的失望彻底了。

期待，没什么好期待了。

Our first overseas competition for the young us.

Team Singapore, Team Stamford.

Yesterday was our first overseas competition for dragon dance for many of us, the young birds. It's somehow a really rare chance for us to get a chance to go overseas competition. But more to come I'm sure! :) Though we did not get more than 9 points for the overall but we did manage to maintain at our 5th position just like when we are in Singapore on our first dragon dance competition of us being the dragon dancer. It's the first time for us to be playing in total darkness. It's really that dark that we have to really open up our eyes and find where's the place we're supposed to jump. OVerall, we had done well! COME I CLAP FOR EVERYONE!! INCLUDING MUSIC TEAM! Had lots of fun on the way back from Muar to Singapore after our dinner. It've been long since we had so much fun and laughter for so long. Hahaha. Hope there's more chances to come, for botj dragon dance and lion dance!

Guess yesterday competition was the last time I'm going to compete dragon tail already. Well, honestly I feel rather... 舍不得 ? Yesterday I really felt that I didn't play the dragon tail well for the last part especially but watched video today and it seems rather alright! It's really a relief to see that. It isn't as bad as I though it is. A bigger challenge coming up next, get it a well done, accept the challenge.

With the peeps at Muar!

Next up, next challenge, next target. Lion Dance competition 2013 with my dear lion head! It's our 2nd time this year to get into competition together. This time let's do it better, far better than the past. I've told you my target and we together had set our target. Let's achieve it by training harder, be there stronger and better. Work hard to get what we want hard! Things don't come easy but we gotta just do it. You know why, I know why too. I know you will work hard with me. :) #LEGGO lion head! Tomorrow let the training begins!

With the bro and lion head~

希望今年我们拿的是更好的奖座。

19th Birthday~

Let me start off this post to those who first wished me, Gillam whatsapp me with a cute birthday song and birthday text when her phone turned 12 while mine haven't turn 12 yet. Hahaha. Allow me to use Chinese for the next part of the post then English will be back~

 

在12点正我收到oovoo打来的电话，接了看到台湾和新加坡的两个好友都上线为我唱生日歌。

真的好感动，好久好久没有大家一起出现了，而出现时竟然是在我生日想给我祝福。我还真的不知道是哪辈子修来的福气能认识你们，能被你们疼爱着~ 短短17天的相处，建立起了倒不了的友情，也让我真的感到很感动大家都珍惜我们的友情。爱你们，真的，谢谢你们！

当然也要谢谢安排的两位，Susan 还有 Rona, Susan 还特地飙车上山，危险啊。还一直不让我睡觉，我懂为什么了！辛苦了~

我很珍惜你们~ 新加坡和台湾的你们。

Went to River Safari today finally. Had birthday promotion and yea it really feels rather awkward to take out IC and like, hey I want the birthday promotion. x.x But really did enjoy myself at River Safari and Bird Park today though it gets rather boring at Bird Park without much changes. I would say, Zoo is still the best for me :) My preference la ah~ But I gotta really really be serious about saying this... THE PANDAS AND THE RED PANDAS ARE DAMN CUTEEE. I really feel like giving them a big big hug! The Pandas are so cute when they eat, they just totally look like they have a carefree life without much troubles when eating. The Red Pandas aren't that photogenic, in the sense of they don't really seems very cute in picture wise but when you see them in real, they are so gentle and cute, they stare into your eyes, give you an innocent look and melt you away, then they look away. Awhile later, they will do the same thing all over again. Ahhh, they're too cute already!

Also enjoyed the Manatees exhibits, they're really beautiful creatures, being gentle and just like a mermaid. Love it pretty much. The pool was also very well decorated and they have plenty of spaces more as compared to the space they had when they are in Zoo, just so adorable. We finished walking and taking photos in like less than 2 hours... Even including watching some of the feeding session in the park itself! Luckily we had park hopping passes if not I think we will be home quite early ah!

River Safari

As I mentioned, we had the park hopping pass, well to say is she have the pass to hop around and I need to go bird park and get another complimentary ticket. x.x I really feel rather shy to ask it though. Hahaha. It's really a long long long long time since I last stepped into Jurong Bird Park. However, it didn't change much though except for the Penguin exhibit and the new exhibits found in it. Was kind of surprised by it. Overall still had a rather great time in it, seeing eagles all over again, having to see the owls in the dark again too. Before leaving the park, the penguins outdoor really made my day, seeing them being so stress-free and just cute thinking we have food for them and swimming to us, then knowing that we don't and they started ignoring us. Hahaha, just how cute are they.

Jurong Bird Park

At night Rona jie, Ting Yan, Jun Jie, Kai Yun and of course my sis came over to my house and gave me a surprise. Well well, want surprise me on birthday aren't really easy you know?! Hahaha! In the end I surprised KaiYun, guess Ah Mui they all will know this very well huh, hmmm. Hahaha. :P BUT, they really surprised me big time with the Polaroid camera, something that I've always wanted for quite a long time and here it is with me. I don't know how to express my gratitude to those who shared the present, thank you all very much!  Think the joke of the day is me thinking today is a Sunday instead... -.- Thanks Rona jie for organizing these, greatly appreciated~ :)

My present from them and OMFG card which match my reaction to the gift well enough. xD

My first polaroid, to them who came :)

Thanks for the cake surprise too!

Lastly, happy 19th birthday to the 19 year old KunDa! Get ready for revolution and changes, remember what you promised, remember to do it. Jiayou bro, you can!

给19岁的坤达。

To my dearest brother:

The one who's always so near to me yet so far to me,

The one who's always there for me, yet made me feel so empty.

The one whom I depend on entirely, the one who made the decision in my life.

 

Hey, you're now a soon to be adult, you just turned 19, it's time to be a grown up. You've to learn to be more independent, never depend on your close friends too much, never to expect from them too much, never to want anything back from them too much. We've seen much and we've know much, accept the truth and move on. Leave what's in your teenage behind, those unwanted and ugly memories, let them stay in the history where they're supposed to be. Only bring forward the happiness and the knowledge you know to your soon-to-be adult hood. Guess you know me better than myself, remind me, guide me, bring me through to a better me, a happier me. Allow me to let go of what's not supposed to be, allow me to be who I am supposed to be. Be there for those who need you, those who really needs your attention and not seeking attention all the time. Remember those who are always there for you, appreciate those who are always there for you, nevertheless, be you, the good you that you are. Keep the little devil in you and let the big angel bring out the best for you.

 

I'm expecting nothing much for you, just these few points...

1. Be happy, be optimistic. Stop being such a negative person and stop dwelling of the past that's not supposed to follow you to the future.
2. Be healthy, get all the unwanted out of the body, sickness, illness, whatever else away.
3. No matter what you do, put in your 100% but don't let people use that as a chance to take advantage of you.
4. Do well for lion dance competition and dragon dance competition. Especially lion dance competition, the amount of effort you put in shouldn't be just gone to waste. Improvement and improvement and improvementssssss, learn more new things and learn more new things. Never give up, never stop learning.
5. Stop being a short-tempered person, be someone who's always smiling and being happy to others and keep all sorrows to yourself. That's what others are expecting from you too.
6. Slim down, the thing you've been trying hard and still persisting, time to buck up and put in far more effort than now.

19 years old me, Happy Birthday to you! May you be blessed with friends, with happiness, with blessings, with joy and with laughter. May you, be what you want to be soon. Have a wonderful 19th awaiting you to explore~ Enjoy!