Stress increasing yet not releasing.

It just came to the point where I really don't know where all my efforts gone to. My efforts aren't reflecting on lion dance. Similarly, it aren't reflecting on my results. A, a target I've set before coming into Poly, why does it seems so so so far away from me? Am I not working hard enough or am I having too much, way too much other commitments that I've eventually leave out on my studies? Time management, something that I manage to commit well when I'm in 'N' level or even 'O' level, yet now, I'm having nothing else but projects, school, reports, data sheets, and endless commitments, increasing commitments in lion dance. I really don't want to get bad results from anywhere, really anywhere. Not school and not lion dance. Results, I do hope to get good results, I wouldn't say that I've worked hard enough but similarly, I won't say I didnt put in enough efforts.

 

Lion dance, something that I've been working hard, something that I've been striving hard to achieve my best in it. Yet recently, there's nothing but problems and problems. We just have to overcome them again and again. Endlessly need to make things better. Some problems doesn't come from errors or what else but they comes from people. How much to get understanding, how much to not get tied down? It really comes to the point where I had enough, enough of increasing stress, endless stress increasing every single time, nothing is releasing but just increasing and increasing. No matter if it's from school or from lion dance, I really don't know how to manage or continue anymore at times. Well, being appreciative for people around me, those who are there to support, to give strength, to give what they can instead of just blaming and blaming. Those who are there, I know who, and you know who you are. Sometimes, motivation, supports and encouragement are really far more important than anything else.

 

Stress, I hope I can overcome you soon, I really need to. Stop increasing please, having stress is good but not to the extend of me having hard time coping and a hard time coping with so much stress at one go. I really don't hope to break down but yet it seems like breaking down seems so hard to even avoid. I'm trying hard to stay strong and trying hard, very hard to maintain my strong instead of breaking down. Tomorrow, final rehearsal somehow for it. Hope things goes well, really hope so... Our target, it still seems far away. Great improvements needed, more more more needed indeed.

 

Sometimes, letting go is a better choice perhaps.