Moody...

Honestly I don't know what's wrong with me now though. I realised though I seems not to care, deep inside my heart I really cared. Seeing you like this makes me cares more but I just refused to do anything. Tried talk, what's the point? what's the use? Giving back all the short replies and I am the one initiating everything, chatting, meeting, every single thing else. It's not that I wanna nag and brag, the truth is that I really feel sucky of myself. You kept saying the problem lies on you but the fact is that I'm just avoiding to talk or meet since it doesnt help and furthermore, more talking and meeting just make the awkward-ness increase. Can you even deny it? I doubt so right? Since there's nothing that I can do about it, just let down of everything and totally do nothing about it. Heard of Let Nature Do The Stuffs? Im sure you just have to let the flow bring the best out of everything. You can hardly create a flow, just wait for the flow to come.. patiently.

Recently though Poly had started, I'm still not very in mood for Poly yet. Guess I still have the holiday mood, time to change it already I would say. It's time to focus on work and maintain my GPA. I want to leave poly with a good result, I want to study University after my NS. So... Just get started soon ba.

I'm sick and tired of everything. I have no comments on anything or everything now. No matter what I say or do, awkward-ness enter my world. Similarly, I'm sick of planning stuffs. Guess I've planned too much stuffs and this cause people to rely on me to plan outings, chalet and everything. I don't mind to plan, but I hate it when people just throw it to you like:" You go plan la!" I'm smart now, I'll say back the sentence. But in the end I'm still the one being KPO to go and help plan. What to say? STUPID.

Sometimes, we just need to think positive. Haha, easy to say huh. Can you even explain how? :O Nope right? It's another easy to say yet at the same time hard to do sentence that people like to say. We need to TRY at least, perhaps that will make your life easier, happier, enjoyable and even give you the freedom to get out of stress and unhappiness. When you ask why you don't have the rights to do something, reply yourself, I have the rights to think positively instead.