Been 2 days, yet nothing changed. Everything remain the same, the changes remains unchanged. Hoping to rewind the changes, hoping to make the changes into something, just perhaps somethings I used to have. Just want to get back to the past, hopefully, getting back to the time when things seems so perfect, when things seems so nice and warm. Unlike now... Weird.
True enough, we can never ever make everyone happy, we can never ever make everyone feels satisfied. Even if you find someone is important to you, you may not be that important to them after all. Because all they see in you, is hatred, someone who will be there for me even when the others aren't.
Them, are the people who take you for granted.
Them, are the people who don't recognise you.
Them, are the people who've never really put you in mind.
Them, are people who you care the most, do the most for them and yet, makes you feel that you deserves better.
Them, are people who only realise you when you're gone.
No one likes to be taken for granted. And yet, all along, we are learning on how to adapt to be taken for granted. Till now, I hope I can have a book of life, a book that will allow you to see all the lessons in life that you have to take, who are the people or what are the things that will happen then you will be able to learn the lesson. How many lessons are we to take. We gain something and yet we will lose something. Yes, we learnt a lesson. However, we lose a friend, we lose somethings we used to have and used to appreciate.
I want to be optismistic, like everything have a positive effect, have a positive reason, have positive stuffs behind everything. Why? Just why does all negative comes to us? Our brain always look on the dark side, not the good side. Time to wake up and say to yourself. Hey, there's a good side to everything. But what? Wait, it takes time to realise. How are you going to let yourself be happy while waiting to find out what's the cause, the reason, the effect, the consequences behind all these? Time...
I'm sorry... I gave up waiting, I gave up doing unwanted sacrifices, I gave up being the best I can be... Because in the end, I don't deserve getting what I'm getting now. All I get is nothing, but treated like a fool, a big fool... I've tried. I tried my very best. If you see it, sense it, thank you. But if everything still seems so far away and all they see is me being an annoying person. Hey, thank you for hating me, thank you for being once in my life. Just want to let you know, I've never regret knowing you. I appreciate your presence, all that you've done and all that you've contributed in my life. Sorry I'm not a blessing in your life but a lesson. I hope I and them can be a blessing, but things doesn't seems that way...
While my heart says give it up, my mind shows me this... Why?
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